The first blog of hopefully few......

A little something about me...I have a uterus, its not cooperating. So after 3 laproscopy's in 10 years for PCOS/Endometriosis and 1 year of OBGYN clomid treatments, we moved on to a fertility specialist. We just finished our 3rd IUI (artificial insemination) with no success. IUI #2 got us pregos but it didn't attach to the lonely uterus and we miscarried for a second time in 2 years. This week feels lonely. I have been very positive up until this point and I seem to be losing it so....I decided to blog. Might as well vent a little and see if that helps, maybe. We are doing a recurring loss panel (tons of blood test in case you aren't aware) and my hubby just did one to test his genes. It will be about 2 weeks until we know the results. So....until then we wait which is awfully familiar to the two weeks follwing an IUI. Wait...and wait....and wait. Next month we are going to start talking with Doc about Invitro. I'm not oppossed personally, just finiancially. So how bad do we want a child....pretty bad. Insurance doesn't cover all this, so its out of pocket and I assure you savings are great for all this until they are at 0$....and it is. We are lucky enough to be able to manage the funds to do these steps but I assure you we are good at budgeting more than any type of assumed wealth. (plus, hey! we have no kids so money is not as tight! lol) So ..... I guess this concludes my first post to, well me I guess.